Sometimes You Need to do a Look Back to See How Far You’ve Come
I wasn’t sure I was getting anywhere on this healing journey. While I am noticing there are more good moments, I tend to get discouraged when it doesn’t seem like I am getting where I want to go quick enough. So, I decided to do a look back to where things were when I started. …
A Bold Decision
Today, I made a bold decision. A decision I didn’t even know I could make. The decision was to have a day without full-blown panic. I was surprised that my decision resulted in minimal panic. Normally, I panic at every unexpected circumstance. This time, if I felt myself starting to panic, I was able to…
The Fear of Not Being Liked
I must really find comfort in self-sabotaging what I want because I constantly do it. We self-sabotage when we engage in behaviors that cause us to get the opposite of what we want. Some of this self-sabotaging behavior can be abusing drugs or alcohol, comfort eating, and procrastinating, among others. I don’t abuse drugs or…
Will Being More Aware Lead to Less Self-Sabotage?
In the spirit of my recent commitment to being honest with myself, I decided to check in with how I’m feeling. I realized that my anxiety is still very high. If I have to rate it on a 1-10 scale, when I actually look at it, I might rate it as at least an 8. …
What Could You Accomplish if Someone Helped Illuminate Your Path?
One of the things I didn’t understand before I went on this journey was the value of a trusted guide, mentor or coach. One of the most valuable lessons from having a trusted guide is that I have been able to be kinder to myself. I often gave myself a hard time for not knowing…
Sleep is NOT Overrated
I’ve noticed that I’ve been dragging…I mean really dragging. I have good intentions of going to sleep at a time that allows me to get 7 to 8 hours of sleep. Yet I never do. Since I have committed to being more aware of my actions and truthful with myself, I realized I’m actually only…
What Can Happen When You Stop Lying to Yourself?
I have to admit, for a while now, I haven’t given 100% to anything I’ve done. In reality, I don’t know whether I’ve ever given 100%. I’ve always hid, or avoided, or distracted. When I took a thoughtful and truthful look at why I don’t give 100%, it was crystal clear to me that I…
Today I Put Down My Shield and My Sword
Some people may think using energy work to relieve stress is nonsense. Today, I realized that I wasn’t totally on board with it. I don’t know if I I didn’t believe it could work or if I believed that it couldn’t work for me. Either way, I never fully embraced it…until recently. I am very…
One Day I Learned How to Stop Hiding
For as long as I can remember, I have struggled with communication. The everyday communication. The implicit understanding of words, of tone, and of nonverbal communication. I’ve taken several classes on communication – a public speaking class in high school and in college, a Dale Carnegie course, and I was part of Toastmasters for two…
Healing Doesn’t Have to be Hard
Eight years ago, my mom and I discovered ThetaHealingⓇ, an energy psychology method that allows you to find and remove the blocks in your life that are limiting you and causing self-sabotage. It’s a powerful tool. My mom fell in love with it and became certified to practice and teach ThetaHealingⓇ. To this day, she…
What to Do When Panic Sets In
I have noticed that my coping skills in circumstances I didn’t anticipate are pretty much nonexistent. When things happen beyond my control, I find myself in a complete panic. My mind goes blank, I can’t think, my stress response goes through the roof, my heart feels like it’s beating out of my chest, and I…
Moving Into Ease
I am used to having to work hard to make things happen. Imagine my surprise when some opportunities showed up out of the blue. When I left my job as a special education teacher, I thought about different ways to bring in an income stream to cover some of my non-discretionary bills. I thought I…
I Gave Myself Permission
Today, I gave myself permission to take a break. A real break where I wasn’t focused on or thinking about work, or what I needed to get done. For as long as I can remember, I never felt like I could fully relax. My breaks were spent procrastinating while doing mindless activities such as scrolling…
You Never Know What You’ll Find When You Dive Head First Into Your Subconscious
After all my procrastinating from taking the steps to doing the work I knew I needed to do to feel better, distracting with mindless activities, and trying to come up with excuses as to why I couldn’t do it (and I didn’t have the excuse that I didn’t have time any longer), I decided to…
Reality Sets In
One day. That’s the amount of time I didn’t feel any stress after quitting my job. I thought I would be motivated. I thought I would have energy. I thought I would feel better. I thought my appetite would come back. I thought I would be excited to come up with a plan for the…
Stress Girl No More
As long as I can remember, I’ve been afraid. I’ve been afraid of getting in trouble, afraid of being a burden, and afraid I didn’t fit in. I constantly felt overwhelmed, not just because of what I had to do but by everything in my environment..sounds, other people’s energy, and what other people said. I…
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Alyssa Phillips 